I love and hate this 4-5 months time period postpartum.
LOVE: My baby is so happy, smiling all the time. He is a rolling champ and loves to be on his tummy, inch worming and grabbing at things. We are really lucky to have a very easy baby. And he laughs big belly laughs!
HATE: At 4 months is also when many babies’ sleep goes to crap. Mine is no exception, although he’s doing better than his brother, who gave us 6 horrible weeks of newborn-like sleep (meaning he did NOT sleep at night). Bear Shark can sometimes be up and down until about 5 am or so. Hopefully, he outgrows this quickly.
Also around 4 months is when mothers’ hormones crash. All the hair I didn’t lose during pregnancy has been falling out in clumps. My older son reminds me, “Mommy, your hair is everywhere.” It’s gross. I know. And with that hormone crash comes thyroid crazyness.
My symptoms aren’t as severe as they were when I was 4 months postpartum with my first. Maybe because I expected it to go hyper and knew exactly what to look for. Maybe because I’m handling this infant phase with more ease than with my first. Maybe because I’m taking better care of myself in terms of nutrition (mama needs to eat!).
I tried to be in denial. When it was 100 degrees outside, it was sometimes hard to tell when I was feeling irregularly hot on top of the weather. (Ugh. Hot flashes.) Breastfeeding has helped me lose the baby weight, but it’s not as instant as the way hyperthyroidism makes your body eat itself. (Unprompted weight loss, which doesn’t stay off once meds even things out.) And finally, I’m so tired every day that I’m not sure if the agitated buzzing I feel physically is from forcing myself to stay awake or from my thyroid.
No matter how many excuses I made for myself, I did know deep inside that I needed to get it checked out. So off to get my blood work done, and a few days later, I got a call from my endocrinologist’s office to come in.
As I suspected, my levels were off. Since I responded so well to the methimazole treatment last time (I was only on them for maybe 3 months), my doctor is putting me on a super low dose. We’ll check again in 4 months, and if everything levels out, I can get off the meds and hope my thyroid remains stable.
So here I go again on this rollercoaster ride. Wish me luck.